My little Angel Sansa...

Truly an angel...

This is by far the hardest blog I've ever written. Bear with me as I gather my thoughts....

Monday May 12th, we made the heart-breaking decision that it was time to say goodbye to our little Sansa, queen of the house and sister to queen Khaleesi. She had just turned 9 years old. She struggled most of her life with digestive issues which finally got the best of her.

We had Lighthouse Vet (Nancy) come to the house to assist with her passing. It was so peaceful, compassionate, loving and heart wrenching all at the same time. 💔

Sansa, I believe, was not really a cat, but an angel sent from above. She was also a trapeze artist, a cuddle buddy, a gift giver of little black toy mice--(leaving them everywhere for me to find.) She was a talker, a vegetarian, (LOVED PANSIES). She frolicked in cat nip and begged to go outside constantly. When we ate, she ate--when we slept, she slept (on me). She was my shadow. She followed me everywhere. She would sit on the front couch looking out the window waiting for me to return from our travels. She was everywhere and anywhere all the time. She was always by my side, in my thoughts and weighed on my heart. She was truly a force...

What I came to find out after her passing was forgiveness of self...

👉🏼If you know anything about me, then you know I like to make sense of things, the timing of things, the whys of events...and this is no different. I turned to astrology.

If you've made it this far- reading-congrats and continue on for more 🤯 revelations.

May 12th was the Full Moon in Scorpio (endings and beginnings). Her life ending, my life a new beginning---(a life without Sansa). I did ceremony that night with emotions running deep and almost unbearable sorrow. I asked for more information as to the timing of her passing and her purpose in this lifetime.

♏ The answer came to me that night in the form of a lucid dream attached to a memory.

19 years ago (Pluto Retrograde) almost to the month, I had to make a similar decision to say goodbye to our pup Magnum. The kids and I got him as a fresh start after the divorce. He had a TON of energy being a Border Collie/Dalmation mix. (That's a tough one, let me tell you). Magnum was a great dog, except for his one bad habit of jumping up and nipping my kid's friends every time they came over. We tried everything to break him of the habit, but nothing worked. I had no choice but to give him away to a rancher that would allow him the freedom to run and work like he needed to. It was heart breaking for the kids and I, and for Magnum. We all cried as we watched him being driven away in the truck. 😭

I promised the kids we would go and visit him on the ranch. And then the unspeakable happened.... I got a call that Magnum had to be put down because he bit the rancher's wife. I was shocked and beyond saddened. The kids kept asking to go see him and I kept coming up with excuses why we couldn't. I never told them the truth, and I never forgave myself for it. 😞

🙏🏼Sansa answered my prayers that night by bringing this memory to the surface to show me that I needed to forgive myself and to let go of the guilt for not telling them the truth about Magnum. In a way, I feel she was Magnum reincarnated.

I have since told my adult children the truth about Magnum. (It was like a 200-pound weight was lifted off of my shoulders!) I was able to forgive myself for something that was buried so very deeply I didn't even know was there.

✨Both decisions in regard to Sansa and to Magnum were hard to make, there's no doubt about that, but I can see they were made for the greater good of all at the time. Pluto Retrograde is a revisiting--I never believed just how much, so.... for this gift, I'm grateful for Pluto, and for my angel Sansa.

Here are just a few pics of this silly, amazing angel, my little black kitty.

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You are sorely missed Sansa...

Love, Khaleesi, mom and dad.