Nature is harsh

Our Robin nest tree

Nature is harsh...🐣

**FYI: trigger warning for those who are tender hearted**

We got to watch Robins build a nest in this 'highlighted' tree from our back patio and from our bedroom window every day since spring sprung. Finally, 4 eggs hatched, and we enjoyed watching mom and dad work hard every day feeding those babies from sunup until sundown. We checked daily on the baby bird's growth with binoculars and couldn't believe how fast they were growing.

One day dad didn't show up. 😬

Mom had the tiring task of feeding the babies all by herself now. She never quit; she never gave up. She would rest for a moment on our rail right next to us. She felt very comfortable with us around. She would even fly so close to us, we could almost touch her. We watched those babies grow big, complete with fluffy feathers. So big, they were outgrowing their nest, so mom had to sleep on the branch below.

🫢 Then one day, mom didn't show up.

The babies cried all day for food and still no mama bird.

~~~~Heart wrenching~~~~

The next day the babes were quiet, but still patiently waited for mom to return. We could tell they were getting restless. Then we left for a mini vacation, returning 2 days later to discover they had all passed with their beaks wide open, waiting for one last feeding. 😭

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😞 I can't believe how much their short little lives affected me. I felt so sad, helpless, hopeless, discouraged and just depressed. Of COURSE I wanted to climb up that tree and feed them chewed up worms all by myself--but obviously, that would be ridiculous not to mention illegal, (I looked) and dangerous. I tried to make sense of a senseless situation. I mean, those babies cried so loud I couldn't believe magpies didn't get them or the squirrel I watched dad chase off multiple times. They were literally days away from leaving the nest.

But it just wasn't meant to be...

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🤷🏽‍♀️So why me? Why did I have to witness this so up close and personally? What was being triggered inside of me? I had to sit with this for a minute. I dug deep---and came up with abandonment. Gosh I felt it so deeply for those babies crying for their mom, and for myself. (I was an adopted baby, not held or nurtured by a mom for 3 days). That's another story...but that's what came up. Crazy how the universe works to help us in our healing journey!

It all comes back to my Pluto.

Which is in retrograde now--(if you haven't heard). HA! If you haven't, you can read my previous blog I've written about it right here:

Pluto Retrograde

👉🏼 But for me---my Pluto (the planet of transformation) is in direct **opposition, exact degree, to my Chiron (my core wound). Pluto being the planet of transformation, rules the 8th house of sex, death and rebirth. When in retrograde---the energies are amplified!

I'm no stranger to death. My mom passed when I was 19 years old, my dad passed 5 years later, then my treasured cat Willow, (at age 21), grandpa's, grandma's, aunts, uncles, my birth mother, 5 dogs, and 4 cats (just to name a few). So, death has been a huge part of my life. I feel as if I have lived and died many lives just in this lifetime with all I've learned and grown from in regard to death. Some examples: the death of a 20-year marriage to the rebirth of a soon to be 13-year marriage. The death of being a mom to young kids to the rebirth of being an empty nester to another rebirth to being a grandmother. The death of my personal training career to the rebirth of my metaphysical career. The list goes on and on, each time transforming me, my mindset and my outlook on life.

📖 Pluto, which IS in my 9th house - (think archetype of philosopher, teacher, professor and higher education) has been one of my greatest teachers. It's been quite an intense Pluto retrograde I must say, with the death of Sansa last month (you can read my blog about her and the lesson she taught me below) to the death of the little Robins this month.

Sansa

I'm ready for Pluto to go direct again October 13th, let me tell you. But for now--I'm sticking with NATURE IS HARSH...

**Opposition simply means the two points are across the natal chart 180 degrees from each other--creating a dynamic of tension and conflict. This typically represents challenges or opposing forces that need to be balanced.

If you're curious about YOUR Pluto and where it sits in your chart--hit me up and we'll dive deep into your transformation!

Where's my Pluto

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